Im Just Sick And Tired Of Everything Now...
He Simply Doesn't Care Anymore...
I Feel That To Him I'm Just His Free Maid...
Nothing More...
Only That The Difference Between Me And Real Maid Is...
Real Maid Get Paid I Do Not...

When I'm Sick He Doesn't Even Bother...
Nv Even Ask If I'm Ok...
When I Reach Home He Never Even Bother To Talk To Me Or Even Look At Me...
When I Do So Much Things He Don't Even Appreciate...
Only Complaints And More Complaints...
Things I Did For Him Is All Rubbish And Nothing To Him...
Things Happening In His House Everything Also My Fault...
I Always Get Blamed For Nothing...
He Never Even Bother To Side Or Help Me When I Got Blamed For Nothing...
He's Stressed But I'm Stressed Too...
Did He Care Or Understand?
Im Tired Too But Did I Complain?

I Totally Dislike People Coming Into My Room Like It's Their Own Room...
Even Though It's His Family Members...
I StilL Think That My Own Room Is My Privacy...
I Don't Like The Feeling Of Pple Coming Into My Room Without My Consent...
His Bro Keep Coming Into The Room To Use MY COMP...
And Messed Up My Table With His Cigg Ash And Never Even Bother To Clean It Up...
When I Get Home I Still Have To Clean Up Etc...
I Really Get Sick And Tired Of It...
Sometimes His Family Member Just Come Into My Room To Get This And That...
Even If It's His Family...
Hello U Like It If I Go To Ur Room And Touch Ur Things Without Consent?
Summore I Got Alot Things Inside...
They Want What Things They Cannot Buy Themselves...
If They Treat Me Well Like I Need What They Help Me Still Ok...
But Cummon...When We Needed Help Where Are U All?
When U Need Help Y Shld I Help?
When I Need Things I Ownself Buy...
When U Need Things I Have To Pass U And Next Time Buy Myself?
Ur Money Is Money, My Money Not Money Mehs?

When We Needed Help Who Helped Out Everytime?
It's Always My Family People...
Who Gives A Damn About Us In His Family?
Den What My Family Get In Return?
NOTHING!
Ask Him To Pei My Family Out...
Always Fulled Of Excuses With I'm Tired, I Don't Feel Like Going Out...
Even Ask Him Go Out Eat With Us Also Difficult...
Den Dota Or Games Not Tiring La?
Going Out With Your Bro And His Gf Not Tiring La?

I Already Tried My Best To Tolerate Her Mum And Family Members Liaos...
I Never Even Kp Them Or What For The Sake Of Him...
Eat Already Plates And Everything Leave It There Like Got Maid To Serve Them...
Never Even Save Food For Me Sometimes And When I Reach Home...
Ended Up Eating Rice With Some Leftover Food Sauce...
Den Fine Ok Nvm...
Then Still Get Scoldings Everytime...
"Y Eat Already Plates Never Wash? Got Maid Help U Wash Ar?"
Hello? When I Don't Even Have Food To Eat Or I Never Eat Anything I Have To Wash?
Everything Also My Fault Anyway...

Dislike Going Out With His Bro And Gf...
Went Kbox The Other Time...
Me And My Bro Only Drink 1 Glass Of Coke That's All...
Ah Boy Only Drink 1 Glass Of Beer...
Then They Finished The Whole Jug Nvm...
Ordered Another Jug...
Then When Bill Comes...
Hey The Bill We Half Half...
WTF...Me And My Bro Never Even Drink Anything And Ah Boy Only Drink 1 Glass...
Y Must I Half Half With U?
Summore Me And My Bro Sit There See Show Nv Even Sing...
Ah Boy Sang A Few Songs Only...
And His Bro Gf Was Singing Most Of The Time...
If U B Fair To Me I Will B Fair To U...
If U R Nice To Me I Will B Nice To U...
That's What I Am...
Take It Or Leave It...

Saw Some Random Person Sms-ed Him...
In The Middle Of Night I Was Woken By His Hp...
Took A Glance Of Who It Is In Case Someone Looking For Him Urgently...
Saw That Message I Was Super Pissed...
The Msg Goes " I Miss U " ...
Ok It May Seem Like A Simple Msg And Means Nothing...
The Next Day The Same Person Send This...
The Msg Goes " Just To Send This Msg To Tell U That Im Waiting For U "
How Will A Normal Wife Respond?
Sure Question Him...
And What Did I Get In Return?
It Goes "Just A Normal Gaming Friend, I Don't Have Anything To Explain To U"..
Ok Fine I Admit I Was Pissed Off And Scolded Him Off That Night...
But The Next Day I Act As If Nothing Happen And Reconcile With Him...
And Guess What?
One Day I Returned Home...
Wanna Take His Hp To Call My Bro Urgently Cuz My Hp No Batt...
Before I Could Touch His Hp...
He Took His Hp Quickly And Quickly Started Deleting Things...
Who Wouldn't Suspect?
I Begin To Ask Him...
What Are U Hiding From Me?
The Only Response I Get Was...
Nothing...And He Screamed At Me Like It's My Fault...
Ok Fine I Dun Wanna Quarrel With Him...
I Took His Phone Wanna Call My Bro Then I Saw...
That Person Who Smsed Him That 2 Nights Called Him In The Afternn...
No Wonder He Was So Scared...
I Started Questioning Him Again And This Time Round He Dun Wanna Reply...
Den Fine I Took The Phone And Called My Bro...
And Guess What...?
He Looked At Me Nervously And Say,
"Who Are U Calling?"
Isn't It Obvious Enough?

I Don't Wanna Act As If Nothing Happen And Get On With This Already...
I Don't Think He's Serious When He Says "I Do" In ROM...
Im Tiring Of Acting...
Im Not Working In Mediacorps Or Hollywood...
I Don't Get Anything In Return Also...
If He Don't Seem To Love Me Now I Don't See Any Point Continuing Also...
Summore If Everytime We Quarrel And Talk...
If He Stop Doing Whatever It's Wrong...It's Still Ok...
But Everytime The Talks We Said...
He Repeatedly Do The Same Thing...
Like After That Gal Contact Her That Incident...
If He Stop Contacting That Gal Im Still Ok...
I Can Pretend That Nothing Happen...
But I Still See The Same Number Appearing In His Call Logs...
Smses Being Deleted Everytime In His Hp Like Destroying Evidence...
I Simply Cant Close 1 Eye Anymore...

I Gave Him Alot Of Chances To Explain Or Talk...
The Only Reply I Get From Him Was...
I Dont Have Anything To Tell U Or Explain To U...
Den Fine...I'll Just Take It As That...
Everytime We Quarrelled Even Though It's Not My Fault I'm Always Ending Up Talking To Him First...
Y Should I B?
And I Really Got A Limit...
If I Reach My Limit I Will Just Give Up...
And Once I Give Up I Won't Even Turn Back Anymore...
And The Limit Is Reaching...
I'm More And More Unhappy Each Day...
I Dun Even Feel Like Going Home Sometimes...
Cuz I Know Even If I Go Home No One Bothers Also...

I Got So Pissed Off To The Limit That I Actually Send An Email To Law Firm...
Asking Them The Terms And Condition Of Applying For Deed Of Separation...
I Really Had Enough...
If He Don't Care Anymore Y Shld I?
Even If He Says He Care...Is His Action Telling Me So?

I Married Him For Him To Love Me...
I Don't Think He's Doing It Anymore Now...
After 6 Months It's Already Liddat...
Im Really Afraid To See What Will Happen After 10 Years...
I Don't Really Have To Depend On Him Also...
I Can Just Move Back To My Own Home...
At Least I Know It's Home...
I Know That When I Go Home Someone Cares For Me...
Even Though My Mum Will Nag And Scold...
But She Really Cares...
The Only Reason Y I Still Haven't Moved Back Was...
Im Still Waiting For Miracle...
Im Still Waiting For Him To Come Back To Me...
Im Still Waiting For Him To Love Me Once More...
But If Things Still Won't Work...
I'll Only Have To End This...
Cuz I Know If My Dad Knows Everything...
There's No Turning Back...
My Dad Agreed For Me To Marry Him Was Hoping That He Will Love Me And Care For Me...
But If He's Not Doing That...
Nothing Matters Anymore...

Is It Me That Changed Or Him?
I Really Feel That I Dont Know Him Anymore...
In The Past I Will Still Bother To Talk To Him Even If It Seems That He Dont Feel Like Toking To Me...
But Now...Im Simply Dont Even Know What To Say To Him Anymore...
And It Also Seems That He's Not Really Interested Or Bothered At All...

It Seems That He's Living His Own Life And Im Living My Own...
It Became A Point That I Have To Do Things Myself, Face Problems Myself And It's My Life...
It Doesnt Really Matter To Him...
All He Did Was Having Full Of Complaints About Me...
For Not Working Etc...
But What About The Things I Did?
Did He Really Saw It Or Did He Really Appreciate?
It Became My Responsibility When It's Not...
Whenever I Tried To Explain To Him The Things I Did...
He Will Just Push It Aside Saying It's Nothing Compared To His Work Stress Etc...
Everything I Do Is Nothing...
Or Is That So?
Did He Really Know That Im Facing Much More Stress Than Him?
I Need To Handle His Stuff...I Need To Handle My Stuff...
I Need To Handle His Whole Family Stuff...I Need To Handle My Family Stuff...
It Feels Like The Whole Weight Is Lying On Me...
Sometimes I Just Feel So Helpless I Simply Break Out...
I Got No One To Confide To...I Got No One To Share My Stress With...

I Did Well They Say Nothing They See Nothing...
I Did Wrong They See Everything And Blame Me For Everything...
Im Really Tired And Stressed...
It Became That Everything Is My Responsibilities...
Even His Family...
So What Am I Really?
A House Maid Or Wife?
What I Get In Return?
Seriously I Dunno...

His Attitude Towards Me Is So Obvious That He Dont Care Anymore...
We're Not Talking With Each Other Anymore...
Even When He Reached Home And Never See Me Around...
He Wont Even Bother To Sms Or Call Me...
The Care Isnt There Anymore...
Or Is He Trying To Tell Me That Im Not Needed Here In His Life Anymore?

I Didn't Even Think Much About It..
Until When Others Outside Started Asking Me...
How Come U 2 Liddat...?Like Married Not Married Liddat...
Worse Still Not Even Like Couple...
Then I Ask Myself...Is Our Marriage Really Reaching The End?
I Kept Quiet Ever Since...
I Dont Feel Like Bringing Up All These Again...
Becasue Everytime Whenever Such Things Are Brought Up...
Everytime Everythings Ends Up To My Fault...
And Everything Will End Up To B The Same Again...
I Really Dont Wanna See Our Marriage End Juz Like This...
But All I Can Say Is...
Actually In My Heart Im Already Mentally Prepared...
I Can Sense That This Day Will Definitely Come...
Not I Give Him Up But Instead...He Will B The One...

All I Can Do Now Is Keep Getting Myself Ocupied With Doing My Own Things...
Everything Also Dont Think...
At Least Nowadays I Went Back Home...
I Saw My Own Family...I Saw My Own Home...
I Really Feel Like Im Home...
With No Problems And So On...
Really A Place Where I Can Rest...
Really A Place Where People Really Cares For Me...
Really A Place Where I Do Things And People Really Appreciate Everything I Did..
Especially When I Saw My Bro...
At Least I Know That He's There Everytime...
But I Took Too Long To Realise That....

Everytime I Look At Those Sweet Couples Out There...
Goin Out Together...Enjoying Together...
Im Starting To Think Back Of The Past...
In The Past He Will...But Now?
Not Anymore..Everything Juz Gone With The Wind...
The Only Thing I Feel That Im Married Is When I Saw The Ring On My Finger...
Will He Still Remember The Promise He Made On That Very Day And Take Care Of Me For The Rest Of My Life?
Or Is He Saying Just For The Sake Of Saying?
Other Than That...I Don't Feel The Love There At All...
Im Always Left Alone...

Been Really Very Stress Nowadays...
Need To Handle Work...From 9-6...
After That Comes Home To Handle Everything...
Feel That My Mother-in-law Keeps Pushing All The Responsibilities To Me WHen Problems Arised...
And Im Always The One To Help Solve It...
If I Do Something Wrong Im Always The One To Get It Too...
Like Everyone's Responsibilities Is Pushed To Me...
THey Just Simply Shrug Off All Their Responsibilities With Their Work...
Saying They Need Work This N That...
Den What About Me?
Im Sharing Everyone's Burden Liddat...
No One Seems To Understand My Stress Also...
Come Home Still Need To Do Housework And Serve Everyone Like Maid...
Everything Juz Comes To Me...
I Have No One To Complain To But Juz Keep Work And Work...

Actually Doing Housework At Home Is Already Very Tiring...
Office Work Too...Keep Kena From Boss...
All The Stress And Unhappiness Im Getting Does Anyone Know?
Plus I Got Plenty Of Other Things To Stress About And Stuff...
Im Really Very Super Tired Handling Everything...
Im Trying Really Hard To B A Good Sis To My Bro...
Trying Very Hard To B A Good Daugther To My Parents...
Im Trying Ver Hard To B A Good Wife..
Im Trying Very Hard To B A Good Daugther-in Law...
But Everytime It Juz Seems To B That All My Efforts Goes Into The Drain...
No One Actually Appreciate It...
No One Shares My Burden With Me...
No One Support Me...
No One Understand Me...
I Got Completely No One To Turn To...

I Really Wonder How Long I Can Stand...
How Long More I Will Just Shrug Off Everything And Just Give Up...
Im Really Tired...
Sigh...

Long Time Since I Last Posted...
Things Going On Fine Wif Me And Him...
He Seldom Go Out Nowadays...
We Seldom Quarrel...
We Starting To Have More Topics To Talk About...

But 1 Thing Fine Another Things Come...
Stressed...!
Just Move Out From Francis House...
Suddenly They Come Saying That Their House Got Things Missing This And That...
And Suddenly...I Become The Suspect...!
=.=

Is It A Crime To Keep Staying At Home?
Sian Lor...And I Think Everyone Suspect I Steal...
WTH Sia...Life Sux Man...
How I Wish I Was Staying At My Own Home...
Everything Wun B Happening...
I Don't Like People To Look At Me With Coloured Eyes...
Or To Point Their Fingers At Me...

Summore What They Saying Also Puzzled Me Sia...
After Few Days We Moved...
1 Friend Told Me That After We Moved Francis Told Him...
That His Mum's Gold Chain etc Missing...
I Don't Wanna Confront Him Yet...
Cuz My Deposit Money Still With Him...
I Scared Later Alot Prob Later They Don't Wanna Return Me The Money...
Cuz I Need To Return My Dad Back...
Things Finally Going Smoothly Between Me And My Family...
I Don't Wanna Later Because Of This Money Thing All The Problem Comes Again...
Anyway My Mum Already Starting To Accept My Hubby...
Starting To Go Out Together Like 1 Big Family Already...

Then I Called Francis's Mum On Last Saturday...
Telling Her I'll B Going Down To Return The Keys...
Then She Ask Me To Go Down To Collect The Deposit Money...
Then She Was Angry...
Saying That We Moved Secretly When No One's Home Without Informing Her Bla Bla Bla...
Then Say Her Things Missing...
Then I Ask Her More...She Say "Aiyah Nvm"...=.="

Then I Was Like...
Where Got Move Secretly Sia...
Before We Move...We Already Tell Her We Stay Till End Of The Month Going To Move Le..
And Summore When We Move...Francis's Dad Was At Home What...
My Hubby Still Wanna Return Him The Keys But He Say Since We Rent Till End Of Month...
Then We Keep It First...
Then Ok Fine Lor...
Summore Of Cuz We Move That Day What...
End Of Month Meaning...(Saturday Was The Last Day Lehs)
Where We Got Time To Move So Last Minute Sia...
Of Cuz We Move Earlier And Just Nice My Dad N Bro Free On That Day...
They Can Help Me Move And On The Way Go Down To Our New Place Fix The SCV Thing...
No Need Make Extra Trips What...
And Also...I Can Save The Trips To Keep Coming Down To Bendemeer Also...
Cuz My Mother-in-law Keep Asking Me Go Down Help Out This And That...
Everyday Take Cab Go Down Expensive Sia...
Then Move Earlier = Save Money Cuz My Hubby Also Can Save Transport Fees To Work Wad...
Like That Also Got Wrong Sia...

And That Best Thing Is...Now Their Thing Missing Say We Move Just Nice Their Thing Missing...
I Wasnt Even At Home The Last Few Days I Staying There...
I Was Making Trips Down To Bendemeer Helping My Mother-in-law...
When I Went Home Francis's Dad Or Sometimes All Of Them Are Home Already...
HOW TO TAKE?!?!
WAH LAUZ EH...Cant They Use Their Brain To Think...
IF Really We Take De...
We Got So Stupid As To Make It So Obvious That IT'S US....
Summore Our Deposit Money Is Still Stuck With Them...
We Got More Risk Since We Never Even Sign Contract With Them...
Our IQ Not 0 Lehs...
Summore If Their Thing Really Missing...
They Should Inform Us Str8 After We Move Le...
They Must Wait 1 Week Later We Move When We Wanna Get Back The Deposit Money...
Then They Say This And That...
What Call Police This And That...
Seriously They Wanna Call Shld Call Earlier Liaos...
Summore Their House Dunno Got How Many People Walk In And Out...
Sometimes Their Window Never Even Lock Etc...
Now They Point Finger At Us...

When I Move In I Already Sense Trouble When They Don't Have Keys To Rooms...
They Don't Lock Their Room...
I Don't Even Dare To Put My Valuables Anyhow Sia...
Hide Like Mad...
Everyday Count My Piggy Bank Ever Since That Time I Realised...
Eh How Come We Keep Putting Coins In The Money Like Not Rising Liddat...
And There Was Once...I Woke Up...
I Saw Eh How Come My Room Door Was Open Sia When No One Was At Home...
Didn't Think Much Of It That Time Also...
Cannot Be I SleepWalk Then I Go Open Door What...zzz...

Also Dunno What Really Is Happening...
Feel So Stressed Up...
Like Everyone Pointing Fingers At Me...
Since Im Not Working And Was At Home...
But They Dunno That...
Wah Lauz I Stay At Home Also Sleep 1 Lehs...
Cuz I Sleep Late Like 5am....
When Their Family Got Up I Off TV Sleep Liaos In Case They Say I Waste Electricity Everyday Stay At Home Watch TV Till So Late...
And By The Time I Wake Up...
Most Of The Time Someone Is Home Already...
STEAL WHAT SIA?!?!

Im Not Poor Until Liddat La...
Even If I Really Need Money...
I Can Go To My Dad To Get From Him...
Everyone Knows He Dote Me The Most...
I Want What He Will Give Me What...
I Need Steal Mehs?
Look At The Times I Slacked Pass Liaos...
Almost 3 Years Since I Quit JC...
I Can Get On Well Everyday With Enough Money To Go Out Play Game Etc...
I Still Need To Steal Mehs...
No Logic Also...
And Besides...Even If We Really Poor Or What...
We Still Got A Piggy Bank Of Spare Cash And Some Gold Necklace etc...
Need To Steal Mehs?!

Summore They Also Never Think...
If We Really Geh Kao Money Thing...
When I Ask My Dad To Come Make SCV Cable...
I Wun Even Help Them To Make 1 In Their Room Also Liaos...
Cost Like Near $200 Lehs...
And Ah...I Wun Even Bother To Help Them Hang N Keep Their Clothes etc Liaos...
Francis Got Prob With Audrey I Also Try To Help Them...
Wear Pyjamas Also Go Down...Run All Over The Place...
He Need People To Talk To I Also Sit There Until Late At Night...Pei Him Talk...
He Need Cigg I Also Pass Him...
Now They Turn 1 Big Round Come Shoot Us...
Really Is "Hao Xin Mei Hao Bao" Sia...

Kindda Bored Of My Life Already....
I Miss My Home Seriously...
No Worries And Everything....
Wanna Find A Job...
But I Wanna Try My Best To Find Job With Same Timing With My Hubby...
So I Won't Sacrifice The Time I Have With Him....
Hope That I Can Find 1 Soon....

Sometimes I Just Feel So Stress...
No One Seems To Understand Me Really...
Everything I Have To Keep To Myself...
Sometimes Im Even Scared To Meet People...
I Don't Like The Feeling Of People Talking Behind My Back...
Or How People Look At Me...
I Know I Dunno How To Dressed Up Myself Etc...
I Don't Have Confident In Myself Also...

Sigh...Hope Things Can Faster Get By With...
Hope Someone Can Prove Me My Innocence...
Super Sian With My God Damn Life...
Nothing Is Ever Right For A Single Moment....!

Is It Love Or Illusion In The Past Few Months?
"You Dun Wanna Go Work" Was All He Can Say...
Telling Me He Gave Me So Many Months To Find A Job N Stuff...
Does He Really Understand Me?

Seriously I Really Think I Got Depression...
I Dont Dare To Go To New Environment...
Im Scared Of Meeting New Pple...
The Phobia Is With Me...
Sometimes I Feel Really Scared...
But Is He There To Hold My Hand...
And Tell Me Everything Is Ok...
And Walk On Together With Me?
Or Just There Keep Pushing Me...
And Watch Me Fall?
Is He There To Protect Me?
All I Need Was Concern From Him...
N No It's Not Coming...
It's Always With His Friends Or His Games...

The "I Dun Wanna Work" Really Become An Excuses For All His Actions...
If That's The Case...
I've Become A Burden To Him...
Then I'll Leave...
Im Holding Alot Of His Burdens Also...
Trying To Sort Things Out...
So That He Can Come Home To Relax From His Stress At Home...
But Did He See That?

Fade Of Feelings Is All I Can See In Him...
I Can Tell He Dont Care Or Love Me Anymore Le...
Mayb Wad He Said He Really Mean It...
He Can Get On Well Without Me...
Mayb He Will Really B Happier...
I Got A Feeling Everytime We Quarrel He Dun Even Bother...
Whether We Will Get Back Together Anot...
I Can Sense In His Heart He Really Wanna Let Go...
It's Always His Frens Pushing Him To Get Back To Me Or Wadever...
And I Ain't Gonna Pull Onto Him Anymore...

Mayb It's A Better Choice For Me To Leave Him...
I Wun Get Myself Upset And Cry Everynite...
I Wun See Whatever He's Doing...
I Wun Need To Think So Hard What He's Thinking...
I Wun B His Burden Anymore...

Y Is It That Whenever I Feel Sad Or Lonely...
It's Always Those "online" Pple That Cheer Me Up...
It's Always Not U...
Y Is It That When I Needed U The Most...
It's Always Those Pple I Dun Even Know Really Well...
Stretching Their Hands To Me To Hold On...
How I Wish That Those Pple R U...
But It's Not...

No Point Lying To Myself U Still Love Me...
When U Dun Anymore...
I Cant Differentiate Did U Really Love Me Before...
Or Is It Only An Illusion...?
Mayb It's Just A Mistake...
I Was Just Nice There When U Need Someone Then N When U're Lonely...
U Don't Really Love Me At All...

I Just Feel I'm No Longer The Same Anymore...
The Things Happening Around Me Are No Longer The Same Anymore...
I've Becoming More And More Lonely...
No One Seems To Understand Me...
I've No One To Turn To...
No One To Talk To...
Everyday I Can Only Face The Comp And Tv...
Everyday I Can Only Tok To Them....
I've Starting To Tok To Myself...
Keep Everything To Myself...
I've Stopped Going Out...
I've Stopped Meeting My Friends...
Im Like Stuck Inside My Room With Four Walls And Nothing Else...
Even Is His Presence Is Here...
His Heart Is Not...
His Heart Belongs To His World...
His Heart Belongs Outside...Not With Me...
It Finally Come To Me...
Did I Really Make The Wrong Decision...
Is He Really Tied Up Because Of Me?
All I Need Was Care And Concern...
But He Isn't Giving Me Any Anymore...
He Simply Just Walked Out On Me...
His Coldness Towards Me Is Getting More And More Obvious...

I Hope Time Just Stopped Here...
So I Can Just Stop At Whatever Things Im Doing...
I Dont Have To Think Anymore...
I Dont Have To Care Anymore...
I Really Want To Give Up On Everything...
But Who Can Really Hear Me Out There?

I Feel Like A Fcking Idiot Waiting For Him To Come Home While He's Enjoying Himself...
5.15am...Still Not Back...
Where Is His Responsibility As A Husband?
I've Done My Best...
Everything Is Over My Limit Already...
I Really Feel Like Tearing That Piece Of Dumb ROM Paper...
To Me It's Just Nothing...

If He's Still Living In His Damn Own World...
Only Cares Abt Whether He Ownself Is Enjoying...
Whether He Ownself Is Happy...
Then What's The Point Of Worrying?
What's The Point Of Doing So Much?
What's The Point Of Caring So Much?
What's The Point Of Sacrificing So Much?

There Are Plenty Of Things I Enjoy Doing Too...
They Are Plenty Of Things That I Love Doing Too...
But I Know I Have To Stop...
I Have My Constraints...
Especially Money Wise...
But Will He Ever Care Abt That Point?
Did He Know That Im Feeling Equally Stressed Too?
Or Mayb Im Feeling The Stress More Than He Does...
Whatever Consequences Come To Me Anyway...
He Don't Have To Care So Much Cuz Whatever Happens...
I'm Always There To Clear Up The Damn Shyt In The End...
And Im Tired Of Doing It Already...

If He's Living In His Own World...
My Existence To Him Is Nothing Anyway...
With Me Here Or Without...
He's Still The Same...Happily Living His Own Life...
He Won't Even Notice That Sometimes I Do Need His Care...
Sometimes I Do Need His Time...
Sometimes I Do Need His Accompany...
Sometimes I Need Him To Hear What Im Saying...

I've Tried So Hard To Enter His World...
But Did He Try To Enter OUR World?
Is Everything The Word About "our" "us"?
Or Is It Only About "Him"?
Does He Really Know What I Want?

I'm Always The One Ended Up Talking To Him After We Quarrel...
And He's Always The One Who Ended Up Walking Away...
Leaving Me Always Hanging There...
Im Tired Of It...
Im Just Tired Of Everything...
If Things Stay The Same...
It's Only One Ending For Us...
Things Wun Change...

Was Slacking So Much Nowadays...
Trying To Find A Job But Always Ended Up Banging The Wall...
Super Sian...

YEAH!I ROM LE! On The 30th Oct...
Although It Was SO LONG AGO..!
The Chalet Went On Fine...
Except For It Was Abit Quiet...
Some Unpleasant Things Did Happened At The Chalet...
But Dun Wanna Tok Abt It Already...

Life Stays The Same...
Except For We Moved Over To Francis's House...
Still Not Quite Used To It...
Trying To Get On As Usual...
Money Problem Is SO STRESS....!
Need To Get A Job Soon By Hook Or By Crook...

Went For Lunches And Dinners With KaiLin Also...
Quite Fun...Muahahahaha...
Cuz KaiLin Is Forever Full With Her Craps...=x
Went Down Her Shop To Buy Some New Clothes Yest...
Time To Throw My Closets Of Old Clothes Away Liaos...
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA....
OH YA! Dun Forget To Mention KaiLin So Hardworking Sia...
Off Day Still Open Shop...Summore Till So Late..!

Watched Movie With Dear Yest...
Twilight...Overall Show Not Bad La...
But Nearly Fell Aslp Cuz I Was Too Hungry And Tired...
The Guy SO YANDAO Sia...!LOL!
I Think From Beginning Till End I Only Forcus On The Guy Nia...=x

K La...End Of Blogging...
See U Soon My Blog..!

Suddenly Feel So Funny...
Yest Dear Dedicate Song For Me Again...
Haha...He Really Feel Happy For Our ROM Wor...xD
Getting More And More Anxious Suddenly...
Today Went Down To ROM For The Declaration...
So Lame Sia...Make Us Read Such A Long Passage...
So Mah Fan....Was So Anxious...
Den He Keep Making Fun OF Me...GRRRR....

Thought Of How We 2 Know Each Other...
So Damn Funny Also....
Actually...AuditionSEA Brought Us Together...
If Not We Won't Even Get To Know Each Other...=)
So That's Wad Makes It A Special Game For Me...

That Day My Friend Still Shoot Me...
"Wa...I Tink U And Him Ah The First Audition Couple To Get Married In Game And In Real Life...Eh Nono...I Think Mayb First In Singapore Play Game Play Until Get Married"
I Was Like =.=" GRRR....Idiot...
6 More Days Liaos....
Muahahahahahaha.....SO SCARY!!

Recently Dear Keep Asking Me Y I Will Fall In Love With Him...
Until Now...I Still Dunno How To Answer Him...
Being With Him Give Me A Special Feeling...
Not Like Other Guys...
Although Sometimes He May B Hot And Cold To Me At Times...=.="

Things That He Do Sometimes Surprises Me Also...
Being With Him I Felt Safe...A Sense Of Security...
He Is Not Rich...He Mayb Is Also Not The Perfect Guy...
He's The Guy Mayb Whom Always Upset Me The Most Everytime...
Sometimes I Just See Him Trying His Best Already...
Compared To The Past....
I Saw Alot Of Changes In Him...
His Thinking Sometimes U Cant Even Figured Out...
But Somehow...Most Of The Times....I Feel That I Can Sense It...

He Just Gave Me A Special Feeling...
No One Had Ever Gave Me Before...
His Hugs...The Way He Talk To Me...And His Everything...
Just Seems So Special...
That Makes Me Have This Feeling...
He's The One...I'm Going To Spend My Life With...

~ Dreams Of Eternity ~ Love Of Eternity ~