I Feel Like A Fcking Idiot Waiting For Him To Come Home While He's Enjoying Himself...
5.15am...Still Not Back...
Where Is His Responsibility As A Husband?
I've Done My Best...
Everything Is Over My Limit Already...
I Really Feel Like Tearing That Piece Of Dumb ROM Paper...
To Me It's Just Nothing...
If He's Still Living In His Damn Own World...
Only Cares Abt Whether He Ownself Is Enjoying...
Whether He Ownself Is Happy...
Then What's The Point Of Worrying?
What's The Point Of Doing So Much?
What's The Point Of Caring So Much?
What's The Point Of Sacrificing So Much?
There Are Plenty Of Things I Enjoy Doing Too...
They Are Plenty Of Things That I Love Doing Too...
But I Know I Have To Stop...
I Have My Constraints...
Especially Money Wise...
But Will He Ever Care Abt That Point?
Did He Know That Im Feeling Equally Stressed Too?
Or Mayb Im Feeling The Stress More Than He Does...
Whatever Consequences Come To Me Anyway...
He Don't Have To Care So Much Cuz Whatever Happens...
I'm Always There To Clear Up The Damn Shyt In The End...
And Im Tired Of Doing It Already...
If He's Living In His Own World...
My Existence To Him Is Nothing Anyway...
With Me Here Or Without...
He's Still The Same...Happily Living His Own Life...
He Won't Even Notice That Sometimes I Do Need His Care...
Sometimes I Do Need His Time...
Sometimes I Do Need His Accompany...
Sometimes I Need Him To Hear What Im Saying...
I've Tried So Hard To Enter His World...
But Did He Try To Enter OUR World?
Is Everything The Word About "our" "us"?
Or Is It Only About "Him"?
Does He Really Know What I Want?
I'm Always The One Ended Up Talking To Him After We Quarrel...
And He's Always The One Who Ended Up Walking Away...
Leaving Me Always Hanging There...
Im Tired Of It...
Im Just Tired Of Everything...
If Things Stay The Same...
It's Only One Ending For Us...
Things Wun Change...
