Is It Me That Changed Or Him?
I Really Feel That I Dont Know Him Anymore...
In The Past I Will Still Bother To Talk To Him Even If It Seems That He Dont Feel Like Toking To Me...
But Now...Im Simply Dont Even Know What To Say To Him Anymore...
And It Also Seems That He's Not Really Interested Or Bothered At All...

It Seems That He's Living His Own Life And Im Living My Own...
It Became A Point That I Have To Do Things Myself, Face Problems Myself And It's My Life...
It Doesnt Really Matter To Him...
All He Did Was Having Full Of Complaints About Me...
For Not Working Etc...
But What About The Things I Did?
Did He Really Saw It Or Did He Really Appreciate?
It Became My Responsibility When It's Not...
Whenever I Tried To Explain To Him The Things I Did...
He Will Just Push It Aside Saying It's Nothing Compared To His Work Stress Etc...
Everything I Do Is Nothing...
Or Is That So?
Did He Really Know That Im Facing Much More Stress Than Him?
I Need To Handle His Stuff...I Need To Handle My Stuff...
I Need To Handle His Whole Family Stuff...I Need To Handle My Family Stuff...
It Feels Like The Whole Weight Is Lying On Me...
Sometimes I Just Feel So Helpless I Simply Break Out...
I Got No One To Confide To...I Got No One To Share My Stress With...

I Did Well They Say Nothing They See Nothing...
I Did Wrong They See Everything And Blame Me For Everything...
Im Really Tired And Stressed...
It Became That Everything Is My Responsibilities...
Even His Family...
So What Am I Really?
A House Maid Or Wife?
What I Get In Return?
Seriously I Dunno...

His Attitude Towards Me Is So Obvious That He Dont Care Anymore...
We're Not Talking With Each Other Anymore...
Even When He Reached Home And Never See Me Around...
He Wont Even Bother To Sms Or Call Me...
The Care Isnt There Anymore...
Or Is He Trying To Tell Me That Im Not Needed Here In His Life Anymore?

I Didn't Even Think Much About It..
Until When Others Outside Started Asking Me...
How Come U 2 Liddat...?Like Married Not Married Liddat...
Worse Still Not Even Like Couple...
Then I Ask Myself...Is Our Marriage Really Reaching The End?
I Kept Quiet Ever Since...
I Dont Feel Like Bringing Up All These Again...
Becasue Everytime Whenever Such Things Are Brought Up...
Everytime Everythings Ends Up To My Fault...
And Everything Will End Up To B The Same Again...
I Really Dont Wanna See Our Marriage End Juz Like This...
But All I Can Say Is...
Actually In My Heart Im Already Mentally Prepared...
I Can Sense That This Day Will Definitely Come...
Not I Give Him Up But Instead...He Will B The One...

All I Can Do Now Is Keep Getting Myself Ocupied With Doing My Own Things...
Everything Also Dont Think...
At Least Nowadays I Went Back Home...
I Saw My Own Family...I Saw My Own Home...
I Really Feel Like Im Home...
With No Problems And So On...
Really A Place Where I Can Rest...
Really A Place Where People Really Cares For Me...
Really A Place Where I Do Things And People Really Appreciate Everything I Did..
Especially When I Saw My Bro...
At Least I Know That He's There Everytime...
But I Took Too Long To Realise That....

Everytime I Look At Those Sweet Couples Out There...
Goin Out Together...Enjoying Together...
Im Starting To Think Back Of The Past...
In The Past He Will...But Now?
Not Anymore..Everything Juz Gone With The Wind...
The Only Thing I Feel That Im Married Is When I Saw The Ring On My Finger...
Will He Still Remember The Promise He Made On That Very Day And Take Care Of Me For The Rest Of My Life?
Or Is He Saying Just For The Sake Of Saying?
Other Than That...I Don't Feel The Love There At All...
Im Always Left Alone...